A few months ago I was at Target, in a hurry, when I saw an older woman, about 70 who looked so cute. Nice bootcut jeans, a brown semi-fitted jacket, flat boots and cute hair. I thought, "Wow. I hope I look like that when I get older," and walked by.
Then, I felt like I should tell her. When I did, she got tears in her eyes, and gave me a hug and said her husband had died last month and told me she'd been going through a really tough time and I helped put a smile on her face.
Well, since then I've been pretty wrapped up in me. We were going to move, I was choosing house stuff, I had James who was still little, Parker who was still a baby too, and an oldest child who required a lot of attention. I was writing for the paper, both of us were busy with church stuff...you all know the drill. I felt all I was capable of doing was doing things for us, that my time to really do good things would be later in life.
Well, I've been watching extreme home makeover and Oprah's big give, and I've been in awe of what people with WAY less money and time than I have are doing for others. I started to realize the reason I've felt overwhelmed and like I have nothing left for others is because I've been so selfish, mostly with my time, and feeling sorry for myself.
So, two weeks ago, I turned over a new leaf. I decided that I want to be more like the people that really make a difference for others. Less about doing my church duty and more about Christlike service. I made a goal to serve someone EVERYDAY, and involve my kids as much as possible. I realized it's not up to me to decide who deserves service, it's up to me to serve others.
I cannot tell you the difference it has made in my life. My outlook and attitude has completely changed. Instead of staring at the mom with the screaming toddler at the grocery store, I leave my cart and see if I can help. Instead of eating an entire batch of cookies, we take some to the neighbors. On days where we have nothing to do, we weed a neighbors yard, or pick up trash at the park. Instead of feeling sorry for myself that my kids are always sick, I try and help others even if they don't need it.
The stuff I've done isn't earth shattering and few probably even notice, but it's made a big difference to me and the way I live my life. I know that my kids are learning from it too. I'd love to hear if anyone has good family service ideas, as it's always hard to find things little ones can be a part of. Thanks for indulging me. I don't usually post personal me stuff.